Hiya Lovely, it's me. She says waving :0)x
Silly as this may seem I'm a little nervous ... it's been a while.
I guess the insecure bit of me is harking back to the friend who would go quiet for weeks or even months. Eventually I'd call her up and the first thing she'd say was "Oh I thought you must've died".
Time after time, even though I knew it was coming, I experienced a sinking, shrinking feeling like I'd done something dreadful and I'd half laugh to hide the sting of those hurtful words. Eventually though I came to realise that if we were true friends time and distance would be of no consequence and recriminations whether deemed as banter or not wouldn't be necessary.
It took a while for the penny to drop (I used to be the world's best at taking responsibility for making others feel good), I quit making the effort and you know what happened? ... Yep, you got it ... Zilch! We drifted apart. All we do now to keep in touch is the occasional card at high days and holidays. Okay, I know, hands up, there's still a part of me that doesn't want to give up. Thank goodness though I wised up to the fact that friends who actually care about one another don't require convoluted explanations, they're simply pleased to reconnect and pick up where they left off or even take things to another level.
Time to 'ramp up the anti'
I'm reflecting on everything that has happened in the past 284 days since 'this' all began. The highs, the lows and everything in between. It has brought us, our connection and friendships into focus. So many questions pop up around what has happened since I wasn't here, especially if anyone even really noticed?
I have lots to share about the blessings of wonderful friends but that's for another day. For now I'd like to ask you a question ...
My energy is returning .. not quite soaring yet but I'm well on the way and what I'd really love is to change things up a little. I would dearly love to start a conversation or two or three, create some interaction, draw out your opinions. I'm happy to be a catalyst, a source of inspiration and for my part I'd be thrilled if you'd be willing to join in sometimes. I'm also rolling the idea around about creating a Private Group on Facebook, a totally safe space for all concerned.
What do you think? Does that tickle your fancy? Is that a goer?
Please. Don't be a stranger. Have your say.
Yes/ No/ I have my reservations ... Whatever your feelings start the ball rolling. Leave a thought in the comment box below - You never know where it might lead x